Today’s ACIM Lesson

Ask Amy: The Script Is Written

Guy QuestionQ:  According to A Course in Miracles, “the script is written.”* If the script is already written by ourselves, why don’t we all write the perfect script for the illusion – health, money, beauty, etc.?

KONICA MINOLTA DIGITAL CAMERAA:  When taken out of context, “the script is written” appeals to human curiosity about fate, destiny, and the possibility of rewriting our lives.  It seems to refer to us as people.  Many books and movies have been based on traveling to the past or future and the consequences of changing actions and events.  But this is the ego script.

Read Lesson 158 and you will find that “The script is written” refers to the end of belief in the ego.   “The script is written,” is actually about forgiveness, Christ’s vision and God’s plan for salvation; it is not referring to the fearful ego script based within time and place.

“Time is a trick, a sleight of hand, a vast illusion in which figures come and go as if by magic.  Yet there is a plan behind appearances that does not change.  The script is written.  When experience will come to end your doubting has been set.  For we but see the journey from the point at which it ended, looking back on it, imagining we make it once again; reviewing mentally what has gone by.” (W-158)

ACIM is an exposé of the ego’s ideology.  The ego’s secret script deliberately dictates, “Seek and do not find” in order to keep us endlessly consumed in a state of chronic dissatisfaction, be it avoiding pain or seeking pleasure.  In the Course, Jesus exposes the self-sabotaging script which the ego has written and buried, and asks us to look at it with him in God’s Light.

At first glance, it does seem perverse that the ego writes a horror story with so much suffering.  But scratch the surface and the motivation is obvious: guilt.  On a deep, unconscious level, we believe we have attacked God and usurped His throne. Somebody must be punished.  The ego’s tale is one of guilt, betrayal, vendetta and death – not love and happily-ever-after.

Beneath guilt is an even deeper reason.  The ego needs to keep itself asleep in order to “exist.”  Ego survives through contraction and sleep – God’s Mind is always awake and expansive; that is Its natural state.  God is the greatest Author and He writes Timeless Truth; the ego cannot outshine God in the happiness department.

“God’s creations are given their true Authorship, but you prefer to be anonymous when you choose to separate yourself from your Author.” (T-3.VI.8:7)

When Jesus says “the script is written” he is referring to the spiritual law that giving is receiving (forgiveness), to Christ’s vision (Oneness), and to God’s plan for salvation (choosing the Holy Spirit as our teacher).  These are three ways of prescribing Perfect Happiness and the tools to recognize that we are an extension of pure God-Mind created out of Timeless Love.

“Christ’s vision has one law.  It does not look upon a body, and mistake it for the Son whom God created.  It beholds a light beyond the body; an idea beyond what can be touched, a purity undimmed by errors, pitiful mistakes, and fearful thoughts of guilt from dreams of sin.  It sees no separation.  And it looks on everyone, on every circumstance, all happenings and all events, without the slightest fading of the light it sees.” (W-158)

* Recommended Reading:
“The script is written” is from Lesson 158.  There is also mention of “the script” in Lesson 169 and Chapter 30, Section VII: The New Interpretation.

This Q&A appears in the Ask Amy column from the May-June 2015 issue of Miracles magazine.  Miracles is a well-loved staple in the ACIM community.  For a subscription, email Jon@miraclesmagazine.org or call 845-496-9089.  To ask Amy a question, email miracles (at) amytorresacim (dot) com

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Yeshua… Eesho… Iesous… Jesus by Wahiduddin

As odd as it may seem, the name Jesus is a relatively new invention, only a few hundred years old, that was created by multiple translations and stylistic changes to the original name.

The name of the one born in Bethlehem to Mary and Joseph about 2000 years ago was written as aramaic text  in Aramaic. Most scholars agree that the common language of the entire region was Aramaic and that Jesus probably spoke Aramaic and was most likely named in Aramaic.

The modern transliteration of the Aramaic aramaic text into English has been written in many forms, including Yeshu’, Eesho’ or Eshoo. There were, and still are, many different, and often contradictory, dialects of Aramaic, making it impossible to know for certain how his name was actually pronounced 2000 years ago. That same name would be written as  in Hebrew and is commonly transliterated into English as Yeshua, which is a Hebrew contraction for the name Yehoshua meaning Yah is salvation or Yah saves. Many Biblical references, such as Young’s Analytical Concordance, have concluded that his name was Yeshua.

The really odd changes to his name all began with translation into non-Semitic languages.

When the name  was translated into Greek, the translators were first faced with the task of deciding whether they should translate the name phonetically to try to keep the sound the same, or whether they should translate the name according to its meaning. Apparently, they chose to use the phonetic approach so that the sound of the name would be preserved, even though the meaning of the name would be lost in the phonetic translation.

Unfortunately, the Greek language lacks some of the sounds used in Aramaic. And to further complicate the issue, all Greek masculine names must end with the letter “s”. So, without the proper sounds and forced to add the “s” to the end of the name, the best that the Greek translators could do was translate the name as  which may be pronounced something like “ee-ay-soos”. Still, that’s pretty close to the original name, except for the letter “s” that was added at the end.

Then, as the books of the bible began to gain wider circulation, the name was again translated, this time from Greek into Latin. In the official Catholic bible version called the Vulgate, the name was established in Latin as “Iesus”. In Latin the letter “I” when used as a consonant has somewhat of a “Y” sound, so the name may have been pronounced something like “ye-soos”, which is a still pretty good approximation to the original name, except for the “s” at the end.

Over the years, as the pronunciation of the European languages gradually changed, and as the manner of writing the various letters also changed, an embellished version of the letter “I” gradually acquired a sound of it’s own and over time became an entirely new letter, the letter “J” with it’s current “J” sound. And, along the way, the long “u” sound of “oo” was lost and it became a short “u”. So, as the newly invented printing press churned out bibles, the Latin version of the name gradually became written as “Jesus” and the English pronunciation as we know it today was gradually adopted.

Although the spelling “Iesus” or “Iesvs” was used in the King James version of the New Testament from 1611 to 1628, by the year 1629 the King James version began to adopt the spelling “Jesus”. Gradually, during the 17th century, the name shifted from “Iesus” to the pronunciation “Jesus” that we are still using today.

Thus, the name  was gradually changed to the English name Jesus…. which is indeed quite a different sounding name.

Fortunately, it seems that the pronunciation of the words in our prayers is much less important that the heartfelt intent of our prayers. And thereby all true seekers receive the same results whether they have learned to call on the sacred name of Jesus or Eeso or Yeshu’ or Iesous.

That is to say, the pronunciation of the name is really not very important, but rather it is our intent,  purpose and faith that truly matter.

The ancient Semitic root of the word for “name” is s-m, and while it does certainly mean “name” it also means much more. The s-m of something is that by which it is known, it is that which makes something different in a way that it can be distinguished from something else, it can mean light or sound or vibration, it is the very essence of something.

So, to call upon someone’s “shem” is not simply to call upon the sound of their name, but it means to call upon their very essence… which is far beyond the mere utterance of a name.

Words come and words go, languages come and languages go, yet the magnificent heart of each person remains the glorious temple of God, the abode of Love Everlasting… if only we will cast off our veils of selfishness and allow the Divine Light to shine forth.

Matters such as alphabets and names and spelling are ephemeral matters, they come and go like the shifting sands. For those who are willing to seek it, there is something which is like a rock in the midst of those shifting sands, something more fulfilling than any ephemeral matter… and that “something” is the goal of the spiritual path. Let us strive to focus our attention beyond words, beyond momentary concerns, and strive to discover that glorious ever-present essence which is beyond the name.

Wishing you love, harmony and beauty,
wahiduddin 


Aramaic Audio Recordings:

http://www.v-a.com/bible/aramaic-jesus.html … eashoa in Aramaic

http://www.beith-morounoye.org/special/yeshu.wma … Yeshu’ in Aramaic

http://www.v-a.com/bible/prayer.html … lord’s prayer in Aramaic
Aramaic References:

http://www.peshitta.org

http://www.v-a.com


Additional Resources:

The Cambridge Encyclopedia of The English Language, by David Crystal, Cambridge University Press, 1995, p.260

http://www.plim.org/JesusOrigin.htm

Many thanks to Wahiduddin for this loving explanation.  To see the original article, click here https://wahiduddin.net/words/jesus.htm

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Different Teacher, Same Message: God-Communication

God-Communication Is the Best Communication that True Spiritualism Can Teach Us

by Hazrat Inayat Khan

The most profound inspiration comes always from the divine mind, and to God alone the credit is due. Even if an inspiration comes through the mind of a person living on earth or through a soul who has passed on to the other side, it still has come from God, for all knowledge and wisdom belong to God.

It is a fault on the part of mankind to attribute inspiration to some limited being who is nothing but a shadow covering God. When a person believes that an old Egyptian comes from the other side to inspire him or that an American Indian comes to lead him on his way, he builds a wall between himself and God. Instead of receiving directly from the source that is perfect and all sufficient, he is picturing his limited idea, making it a screen between himself and God.

   from  http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/II/II_43.htm

Is not God enough for our souls, and is He not sufficient to inspire us and to illuminate our wills and guide our souls? Is he any less of a friend here or in the spirit life? He is the great well-wisher. In Him mercy is complete. He is the Soul of all souls. When we devote ourselves to the thought of Him, all illumination and revelation are ours. God-communication is the best communication that true spiritualism can teach us.

   from  http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/VII/VII_21.htm

Thus the ultimate purpose, for which the soul is seeking every moment of our life, is our spiritual purpose. And you may ask how to attain to that purpose. The answer is that what you are seeking for is within yourself. Instead of looking outside, you must look within. The way to proceed to accomplish this is for some moments to suspend all your senses such as sight, hearing, smell, touch, in order to put a screen before the outside life. And by concentration and by developing that meditative quality you will sooner or later get in touch with the inner Self which is more communicative, which speaks more loudly than all the noises of this world. And this gives joy, creates peace, and produces in you a self-sufficient spirit, a spirit of independence, of true liberty. The moment you get in touch with your Self you are in communion with God. It is in this way, if God-communication is sought rightly, that spirituality is attained.

   from  http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/VI/VI_4.htm

Many thanks to Wahiduddin and his Bowl of Saki — the source of the above writings of Beloved Murshid, Hazrat Inayat Khan.

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Proof of Nothing: I = 1

It occurred to me this morning that “I” as in “I am” is equivalent to the number “1.” proof

The personal “I” that goes with “Amy” and “me” is not what I’m referring to.  This discussion begins with the collective “I” from which duality springs, and, according to A Course in Miracles, where the power of decision abides.

“I” is the arising of otherness without fear or guilt.  “I” is the ability to regard the God-Self in blissful reverence.  “I” is the knowing of aliveness before the body or any form seems to exist.

Non-duality means “not two.”  “I” is not-twoness.  We could say “I” equals “one.”

The number “1” means what?  Solo.  Only.  Single.  Unified.  Doing spiritual math, “I” minus “1” equals “0” … minus any number from thyin yang brush strokee same number and you get zero.  It just struck home this morning that, in English, “I” and “1” look awe-fully (not awfully) alike.

Big clue.  Super obvious.  I = 1.  One thought of separateness, believed in, equals countless forms.  One thought returned to Zero undoes that initial first thought.

One could say that 2 – 1 = 0.  Realizing that you are not-two could seem to logically mean we are One … but deeper examination reveals there is no One.  This recognition annihilates the belief in a personal self/ego.  What is left is … no self-concept, no-thing, nada, zilch, Zero (another name for God ;-)).

Kaku-an as reproduced by Shubun

Art by Kaku-an as reproduced by Shubun

“When there exists no form of dualism, even a thousand-eyed one fails to detect a loop-hole.”  ~Kakuan Shien, translated by D.T. Suzuki

Thanks to Paul Hedderman for inspiring this piece: www.zenbitchslap.com

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Why Attend “Weekend of Freedom” 2015?

Intimate retreats like Weekend of Freedom 2015 are powerful and enlightening because they encourage communion with Truth (sometimes called satsang).

WOFR flyer 2015By committing to attend, whether you notice it or not, you immediately start to:

*  Experience spontaneous miracles
*  Clarify your understanding of ACIM concepts
*  Immerse yourself in an atmosphere of Truth, Love and Freedom
*  Connect with teachers who truly inspire you
*  Just be … simply allow Spirit to guide you every day
*  Absorb the healing energy of the retreat even before it’s begun
*  Be more willing to practice forgiveness each day
*  Meet like-minded people who are supportive of  your spiritual life
*  Get a natural facelift from smiling so much!
*  Allow the Holy Spirit to provide, even when money seems scarce.  After all, your nature is Unlimited Abundance and if you’re meant to attend, you will tap into God’s Inheritance 😉

As soon as you sign up, you begin to reap the benefits of the retreat!  You have put your willingness into action.  You have planted the seed of awakening.  Miracles effortlessly ripple through you (even if it seems as though nothing is happening).

In my experience, signing up for retreats, workshops, intensives and other spiritual events has been a big opening for my healing and unlearning.  There is every reason for Weekend of Freedom to be that opportunity for you.

Here’s more info about the event: http://weekendoffreedomretreat.com/price_list.php and how to commute there: http://stonypointcenter.org/events-retreats/getting-here#.VTv9pJPUzYB

Also, feel free to email me questions at miracles (at) amytorresacim (d0t) com

I look forward to hanging out with you during the Weekend of Freedom!  Please introduce yourself to me and let’s have a hug!  Much appreciated if you check the “Amy Torres” box on the registration form.

Copyright © 2015 Amy Torres.  All rights reserved worldwide.

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A Course in Miracles Is A Sexy Read

unzipthebodyA Course in Miracles, typically considered mystical scripture, can also be seen as a love story, a whodunnit, a thriller, a new genre mixing Fact and fiction, and an interactive read where the reader discovers she or he is the protagonist!

ACIM promotes naked honesty and constantly invites you to strip … your false identity.  It is, after all, an exposé of the ego.  How?

Well, at first, by forgiving everybody towards whom you’ve ever held a resentment or grievance.  The twist is that everybody turns out to be you.  Yep, it’s similar to the movie Fight Club — well worth watching if you’d like a better understanding of the ego and self-hatred.

ACIM 3rd EditionThe book cover lacks an author.  For some, it is obvious that the Course was written by none other than Jesus Christ.  Others dispute this vehemently.  Many don’t know and don’t care because deep immersion in A Course in Miracles reveals that although you seem to be in this world, you are certainly not of it — and the joy and freedom of this discovery make authorship inconsequential.  Then, WOW, what a discovery!  It turns out that you are the author.

Yes, it becomes obvious that you are the author of A Course in Miracles because it is simply the memory of God within you speaking through you to you of You.  You might need to read that sentence again :).

The evil villain turns out to be you.  The scrumptious lover turns out to be you.  The cripple; the hero; the traitor; the staunch defender; the coward; the victor — all you.  Jesus turns out to be you.  In fact, you are an extension of God Itself.

This God-Self is totally impersonal and yet the most intimate love relationship of all.  Plus, it’s never-ending bliss because as  pure, unborn Life, You can never die.  Stick with the Course and you’ll find out that at no single instant does the body exist at all.  So that pesky personal identity that’s been plaguing you is just an idea (you’re human) that you’ve attached to another idea (you’re in a body), neither of which are real.

rose petal bedSuspenseful and mind-boggling, isn’t it?  A Course in Miracles is over 1,200 pages, so you can settle into bed with this big, long book and have yourself a good time!  Adam and Eve were the beginning of sex and guilt, but the Course is the Source of Infinite Bliss.  You’ll never want it to end, and, luckily, Sinlessness never does.

But don’t take my word for it.  Read it for yourself.  After you get through the part about how you actually love crucifixion, and you’re truly terrified of redemption, then comes the really good stuff!

To hear Amy speak about A Course in Miracles, watch her YouTube videos, and join her at Change Your Mind, Change the World in Las Vegas this April.

If you’d like to ask Amy a question for her popular Ask Amy column in Miracles magazine, email miracles (at) amytorresacim (dot) com … Also, check out Workin’ the Workbook, Amy’s online class which supports the ACIM Workbook practice, and her book, Sweet Dreams of Awakening: 365 Good Night Blessings.

 

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Shut Off Your Brain and Open Your Heart

Brain Heart Patti ReedIt’s always comforting and inspiring when people share ordinary miracles — things that happen daily but can easily be missed … unless you shift your attention to what is True.

Today, one of my Course students shared this beautiful miracle that occurred as she was walking on the beach.

She said a silent prayer and then looked down, saw two sea shells and took them to mean:

“Shut off your brain and open your heart and God’s Will will be done.” ~Patti Reed.

By the way, Patti is a miraculous healer and you can learn more about her work at http://www.pattiintuitivemovement.com

Thanks for sharing, Patti!

I welcome all your miracle stories.  Please email them to me at miracles (at) amytorresacim (dot) com

Let’s practice together!   You can watch and hear Amy reading each ACIM Lesson on Youtube.  Also, check out Workin’ the Workbook, Amy’s online class which supports the ACIM Workbook practice. 

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Transfiguration … is that a good thing?

Holidays come and go and I don’t notice them.  But words like “transfiguration,” “metamorphosis” and “resurrection” get my attention!

When Jesus refers to Easter and Christmas in A Course in Miracles, he uses them just like everything else: to help us awaken to our true Identity.  Transfiguration, metamorphosis and resurrection are meant to communicate the process of recognizing your true Self.  Whether it seems possible or not, it is inevitable that you will discover that you are already awake.

Transfiguration by Alexandr Ivanov 1824

Transfiguration by Alexandr Ivanov 1824

Jesus says it in many different ways throughout the Course, but the Message never varies: we are not the body, we are free, for we are still as God created us.

We are Spirit, we are One Self, we are Great Rays emanating from our Father Who has joined with us in formless timelessness.  We share One Name.  We are the Same.

Yet, we remain clueless about our true Identity although Jesus insists it is right in front of our nose, simple and obvious!  How?  By having a running monologue with the ego self.  You take yourself to be a person, and are mesmerized by the person you seem to be!

The person you imagine yourself to be is the self-concept, dreamed up by the ego, who is talking to itself, disguised as many.  This conversation, seemingly a dialogue, is actually the one ego-mind talking to itself.  All the people around the world, good and bad, have emerged from this one ego and are fragments of the one ego mind.  From savage disputes to special alliances, it is all one mind acting out different roles.

In A Course in Miracles, Jesus understands our insanity — one mind seeing itself as many and talking to and fighting against “others, out there.”  He gives us a forgiveness practice to keep us busy.  At first, it seems as if we are forgiving others.  Eventually, it becomes clear we are forgiving ourselves.  Beyond that, it is seen that forgiveness undoes the personal identity entirely.

“Through your transfiguration is the world redeemed, and joyfully released from guilt.  Now do we lift our resurrected minds in gladness and in gratitude to Him Who has restored our sanity to us.” (W-151)

angel skyWhat does “transfiguration” mean?  Basically the same thing that “metamorphosis” means.  “Trans” and “meta” can both be used to mean “to go beyond.”  To go beyond the figure is to go beyond the body. When we first experience that we are not the body it is miraculous!  Eventually, this miracle becomes the new normal as the mind shifts from false personal identity to True Unified Identity.  In other words, the process of transfiguration leads to resurrection.

Everyone who sees God’s Light in another will inevitably see her/himself as God’s Light.  Jesus tells us, “Your resurrection is your reawakening.  I am the model for rebirth, but rebirth itself is merely the dawning on your mind of what is already in it.  God placed it there Himself, and so it is true forever.”

At first, this may seem impractical and unattainable, but, rest assured, it is supremely practical and need not even be attained because it is already so!  Rebirth may sound like a grand achievement, but actually, even rebirth is unnecessary.  As the great contemporary master, Sri Mooji, puts it: You are the Unborn, beyond human life and death.  Once you know this, there are no more questions.

“Perhaps today, perhaps tomorrow, you will see your own transfiguration in the glass … When you are ready you will find it there, within your mind and waiting to be found.  You will remember then the thought to which you gave this half an hour, thankfully aware that no time was ever better spent.” (W-124)

To ask Amy a question, email miracles (at) amytorresacim (dot com)

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Lesson 92 – Miracles are seen in light, and light and strength are one.

Commentary (full lesson beneath commentary)

My claim to miracles is inherent in the truth of What I Am. It is God’s Strength in me that is the light in which I see, as it is His Mind with which I think … it is laughable to think I think with the brain, see with the body’s eyes. When asked if she was afraid to catch leprosy from the people she was working with in the streets of Calcutta, Mother Teresa looked into the face of the child she was holding in her arms, and said, “What lepers?” She saw with God’s eyes, she saw the face of Christ in every face. “Truth is a savior and can only will happiness and peace for everyone. It gives its strength to everyone who asks, in limitless supply.”

Sit quietly and let this Truth roll through you. There is a quickening, a tingling, an effortless expansion of breath, a great Exhale. An anticipation, a sense of promise … a widening of knowing … a thinning of personal identity … a smile on the lips … a sense of purpose with no agenda, no ambition, no goals. Yes.

LESSON 92

Miracles are seen in light, and light and strength are one.

The idea for today is an extension of the previous one. [Lesson 91: Miracles are seen in light.] You do not think of light in terms of strength, and darkness in terms of weakness. That is because your idea of what seeing means is tied up with the body and its eyes and brain. Thus you believe that you can change what you see by putting little bits of glass before your eyes. This is among the many magical beliefs that come from the conviction you are a body, and the body’s eyes can see.

You also believe the body’s brain can think. If you but understood the nature of thought, you could but laugh at this insane idea. It is as if you thought you held the match that lights the sun and gives it all its warmth; or that you held the world within your hand, securely bound until you let it go. Yet this is no more foolish than to believe the body’s eyes can see; the brain can think.

It is God’s strength in you that is the light in which you see, as it is His Mind with which you think. His strength denies your weakness. It is your weakness that sees through the body’s eyes, peering about in darkness to behold the likeness of itself; the small, the weak, the sickly and the dying, those in need, the helpless and afraid, the sad, the poor, the starving and the joyless. These are seen through eyes that cannot see and cannot bless.

Strength overlooks these things by seeing past appearances. It keeps its steady gaze upon the light that lies beyond them. It unites with light, of which it is a part. It sees itself. It brings the light in which your Self appears. In darkness you perceive a self that is not there. Strength is the truth about you; weakness is an idol falsely worshipped and adored that strength may be dispelled, and darkness rule where God appointed that there should be light.

Strength comes from truth, and shines with light its Source has given it; weakness reflects the darkness of its maker. It is sick and looks on sickness, which is like itself. Truth is a savior and can only will for happiness and peace for everyone. It gives its strength to everyone who asks, in limitless supply. It sees that lack in anyone would be a lack in all. And so it gives its light that all may see and benefit as one. Its strength is shared, that it may bring to all the miracle in which they will unite in purpose and forgiveness and in love.

Weakness, which looks in darkness, cannot see a purpose in forgiveness and in love. It sees all others different from itself, and nothing in the world that it would share. It judges and condemns, but does not love. In darkness it remains to hide itself, and dreams that it is strong and conquering, a victor over limitations that but grow in darkness to enormous size.

It fears and it attacks and hates itself, and darkness covers everything it sees, leaving its dreams as fearful as itself. No miracles are here, but only hate. It separates itself from what it sees, while light and strength perceive themselves as one. The light of strength is not the light you see. It does not change and flicker and go out. It does not shift from night to day, and back to darkness till the morning comes again.

The light of strength is constant, sure as love, forever glad to give itself away, because it cannot give but to itself. No one can ask in vain to share its sight, and none who enters its abode can leave without a miracle before his eyes, and strength and light abiding in his heart.

The strength in you will offer you the light, and guide your seeing so you do not dwell on idle shadows that the body’s eyes provide for self-deception. Strength and light unite in you, and where they meet, your Self stands ready to embrace you as Its Own. Such is the meeting place we try today to find and rest in, for the peace of God is where your Self, His Son, is waiting now to meet Itself again, and be as One.

Let us give twenty minutes twice today to join this meeting. Let yourself be brought unto your Self. Its strength will be the light in which the gift of sight is given you. Leave, then, the dark a little while today, and we will practice seeing in the light, closing the body’s eyes and asking truth to show us how to find the meeting place of self and Self, where light and strength are one.

Morning and evening we will practice thus. After the morning meeting, we will use the day in preparation for the time at night when we will meet again in trust. Let us repeat as often as we can the idea for today, and recognize that we are being introduced to sight, and led away from darkness to the light where only miracles can be perceived.

Let’s practice together!  Listen to God Goes With You.  Watch and hear Amy reading each ACIM Lesson on Youtube.  Also, check out Workin’ the Workbook, Amy’s online class which supports the ACIM Workbook practice. 

To ask Amy a question, email miracles@amytorresacim.com

 

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Ask Amy: Sexually abused by a priest: are you responsible?

Guy QuestionQ:  As a boy, I was sexually abused by a priest, and it has crippled me as an adult in many ways.  The Course has helped me to forgive him, but I feel like Jesus is blaming me when he tells us to say, “I am responsible for what I see.  I choose the feelings I experience, and I decide upon the goal I would achieve.  And everything that seems to happen to me I ask for, and receive as I have asked.” (T-21.II)  How could I be responsible for this priest’s actions, especially since I was so young at the time?

KONICA MINOLTA DIGITAL CAMERAA:  Thank you for your courage in sharing this devastating situation.  Your question is shared by so many people who were betrayed as children.  There are several layers here, so let’s peel them away together.

First, you reveal that due to the abuse you are crippled as an adult.  As realistic as this seems to you, please consider that no matter what your circumstances, feelings, or state of mind, Jesus clearly states in Chapter 1, “You are the work of God, and His work is wholly lovable and wholly loving.”  Somewhere deep inside we all know this is true.  Allow yourself to be a sponge and soak up this loving testament to who you really are, and always will be, God’s perfect child.

Second, you say the Course has helped you forgive the priest.  In the ACIM Preface, Jesus explains that each special relationship holds the “chance to forgive oneself by forgiving the other.”  This could be taken to mean that one person forgives another, but the Course clarifies that forgiveness occurs when you invite the Holy Spirit to take charge and work through you.  The Holy Spirit truly empowers us by undoing projections of victimization no matter how justified they appear.

In the process, guilt may seem to move from “other” back to “self” until it evaporates entirely.  Eventually, we discover forgiveness undoes the identification you have as a person and reveals there is no one to be forgiven.  You don’t have to figure this out.  ACIM is like a Zen koan — it boggles the mind in order to open the mind to its true Identity.

Third, you feel Jesus is blaming you, which reveals you are still carrying guilt.  Not to worry.  Guilt is the glue that holds the ego together.  When you catch yourself feeling as if Jesus is blaming you, be aware that ego-thinking has taken over.  Let this become an ongoing reminder to “choose again.”  Simply say, “Holy Spirit, I choose your guidance. Remind me of my innocence.”  Miracles are guaranteed.

Last, you ask, “How could I be responsible for the priest’s actions, especially since I was so young at the time?”  Notice within your question is the inherent assumption that you are a person.  Don’t fall for this ego trick.  “A pseudo-question has no answer.  It dictates the answer even as it asks.” (T-27.IV.5)  The ego lures us to speculate endlessly about human affairs.  Dismiss this temptation.

The prayer you cite is about a higher power of decision.  There are only two choices: God or ego.  You are responsible for choosing to see with the Holy Spirit’s unifying vision or the ego’s divisive eyesight.  This prayer is neither an accusation nor a law of attraction mantra.  Jesus is not concerned with people improving their personal lives, which only strengthens belief in ego illusions.  Happily, the part of you that reads the Course understands this because it is the memory of God within you, awakening to its true Self.

Try this: “I, the One Son of God, am responsible for what I see.”  Choose peace, make peace your goal, and you will come to feel peace, receive peace, give peace, and know you are peace.  “Everything looked upon with vision is healed and holy.” (T-21.Intro)

Suggested reading:  A Course in Miracles, T-11.VIII. The Problem and the Answer; T-26.II. Many Forms; One Correction; S-1.I. True Prayer, and How to Take Yourself Less Personally.

This Q&A appears in the Ask Amy column from the March-April 2015 issue of Miracles magazine.  Miracles is a well-loved staple in the ACIM community.  To get a subscription, email Jon@miraclesmagazine.org or call 845-496-9089.  To ask Amy a question, email miracles (at) amytorresacim (dot) com

 

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