30 Jul 2014 Comments Off
About 15 years ago, I realized that I was “obsessed with God.” It was a healthy obsession which grew out of my immersion in A Course in Miracles. God was in my thoughts day and night. I looked “normal” and behaved “normally” but I was no longer alone in my thought process. God was constantly with “me.” Trust grew. Fear lessened. Miracles and blessings occurred daily.
I went through several periods of disorientation as my personal identity was uprooted but remained completely functional. My personality still threw ego thoughts at “me” but interest in them waned as surrender to the Creator prevailed. In other words, the personality and its demands became less and less riveting as God illuminated my mind. This undoing process continues to this day.
I highly recommend the God obsession. Many people are afraid that an obsession with God means they are having a break with reality or will turn into a monk or nun. It’s the opposite. A healthy obsession with God returns you to your right mind which puts you on the path to Reality. And most people are not called to celibacy or a life of solitude, although if you are, it will be perfect for you.
The key element to a healthy obsession is tuning in to your Internal Teacher. A Course in Miracles calls the Internal Teacher the Holy Spirit. It goes by many names and can be found on countless spiritual paths. Eventually the Internal Teacher makes Itself obsolete, as “you” disappear back into the nothingness from which you came, and Truth Presides.
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